By Cheryl E Beckles
I just read a quote ‘I’m still here, so please don’t call my nest empty. My wallet is certainly empty, but not my house!’. After reading that, my mind began to reminisce over my life as a parent. I would go further and say that my nest is not empty, but my nest and heart FULL.
I’m not ashamed to say that the tears came to my eyes as I began to think of my life as a Mom. These were not tears of sadness-not at all! They were actually tears of gratitude and joy, as I thought about the years of parenting that I have had. When the children were younger, and the house was full of kids, it was a time that was busy, bustling, boisterous, and yes-beautiful! Lest you think I seek to paint a picture of perfection, I want to also let you know that it was also a time of noise, worry, trouble, questions
Laughter filled the house, and so
We miss the ‘boys’ as we call them. We especially miss Kodi, the other child, who will never walk through the doors of our home again (at least not on this side of life). We miss and continue to grieve his physical presence. We miss their daily comings and goings, involvement in their extracurricular activities, and our daily dinners together, when we would spend so much time talking, laughing and sharing. You listen to a sound and think-oh, that must be one of the boys then you realize it was just the wind, or the house adapting to its ‘normal’ of less bodies.
Mike and I look at each other with that knowing look of ‘it’s just you and me now, baby’. Then we laugh, and say something like-‘let the games begin!’.
This change reinforces the fact that our children are truly not ours. They are lent to us for a season; we are mere stewards of them for a time. They are a garden to be tended, fertilized, watered, pruned, and then cut to be given back to the Father for their purpose to be fulfilled. Each step of the way and every day, we must remind ourselves of our purpose as parents. We pray to God for a beautiful harvest. We do the work, with His help and grace, and then sit back and wait for Him to reveal HIS best work through them. We may never even see it in our lifetime. We just thank Him for the privilege of trusting us as parents, and pray that our children walk in the purpose and calling that He has for them.